GOD KNOWS ME.
He knows what I love, and He knows what I need.
This doesn’t come as a shock that my Heavenly Father knows me after all He created me.
There are moments in life when I really get a chance to see it. Mostly they are the moments I choose to because the evidence is always there.
He knows when I need to be challenged to grow and He knows when I need rest.
The first half of my CGA experience can be described as a challenge. It was adjusting to life in an office behind a computer, when I am use to jobs that have me on my feet interacting with people all day. It was adjusting to having books to read, projects to do and blogs to write. My schedule suddenly had more deadlines and expectations than it had in over a year.
Along with the CGA requirements there was a lot more of what the Lord was doing IN me…more of the refining process. John 15 is a part of scripture I’ve been meditating on a lot since I’ve been back from the World Race. The Lord was bringing up areas in my life that I needed to deal with, areas of my heart that He wants to reshape to be more like Him and area’s that needed healing.
This week though He knew I needed rest. It was after a long yet awesome ten days of training camp. I was coming out sleep deprived, with a pretty long to do list, on the verge of getting sick and a heart full of all the Lord was showing me.
Monday morning I was sick. I went in for CGA and went home two hours later.
I ended up in bed for the rest of the day. I slept most of it but spent a few hours of it awake. Next to my bed was a pile of books that I brought with me that I wanted to read but haven’t touched with all my required reading. I got to pick up a book that is one of my favorite.
It is not the ideal way to rest by any means but I got to rest. I got to read a book that I love. I got to drink a lot of tea. I got to wear my comfy soft clothes. I took lots of naps. I got a lot of quality time with my roommate who was also sick.
It wasn’t just my physical body that needed healing this week, there was also a mental health aspect of it. I needed a rest from the crazy schedule I had created for myself, to look at how I was operating, and what needed to change.
God knew that I needed it. He knows what I need even when I don’t.
If you, then, though you are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father in heaven give good gifts to those who ask him!
Matthew 7:11
